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Saturday, November 28, 2009

walking

walking is good.
when i feel like running, because slowing down reminds me to think.

Everything I have ever been taught has been about running.
Run hard after the Lord. but sometimes i can barely get out of bed so walking more than i think i can do.

Run, pace yourself and breath.
but I never liked the competition of track or cross country. In fact i hated it. and my shins hurt.

We are all in a huge race to win. Make more money.
buy more stuff, have the better car, or bike.
Have the latest boots, and the most successful mate.
A college degree and kids.
a house in the country
a loft in the city
to have an opinion about politics ["its screwed up" doesn't count]
we are racing to the grocery store
and we get upset if the cashier next to us is moving faster than ours.
we run at the gym
and tap our impatient feet while waiting in line for our breve latte.

and all the while.
the birds were flying south
and the trees changed colors.
an entire term passed
and your little sister is a woman.
your dad walks a little slower
and mom is begining to laugh like grandma.

sometimes its good to walk.
I think Jesus walked, I don't remember Him running from place to place.
Walking forces me to think and pray.
For the first time in my life I have regrets.
maybe i always have and just raced past those thoughts.
Good regrets though. I learn from them
and that is good.


Saturday, November 14, 2009

today

i fee like coughing when i look at xanga. because it has been so long since i was last on here. it reminds me of an old attic, and the attic is really dusty and sunny, so i cough.
it also reminds me of places and people and a time i love thinking about, and it reminds me of people and places and a time i dont like thinking about. my heart starts pounding and i get squirmish. and i want to leave.
today i went to work and made coffee all morning long.
and that too. i never thought i would still be at this massive green corporate coffee chain this long. i don't mind it as much any more though. being in school changes things. my life revolves around that...... not coffee. and that relaxes me.
its funny what life throws at you.
marriage?
what the!!!??? i am still a bit at odds with that one.
i am getting restless in portland. i need a change. perhaps i will move to finish out my bachelors on the east coast somewhere.
ohhh, yes. if my [lovely] hubby allows.
my co-workers and i picked apart a butter horn thing today at work. i am not sure i have ever experienced one before today. it reminded me of a customer crush i used to have. he always ordered a large coffee and a butter horn. i had the biggest crush on him probably because he was tall. and he would wink at me and it always made my day. then it reminded me of the costco guys that would come in. they would leave me notes and draw pictures of me while i worked and although i just laughed it off, that also made my day.
i am not allowed to have customer crushed anymore (im pretty sure that is the rule right?)
and when i am sitting in a coffee shop late at night, doing my homework, i have to say no to the guy who offers to trade, my company for a shot of whiskey.
and all this i am okay with because Brandon surpasses them all.
but it is still odd to think, because i never really pictured myself married at all.
sometimes i stare at Brandon and I wonder "why the H is he with me?"
"he could really have done so much better."
and it makes me wonder how i trapped him into this and even if i meant to at all.
all things considered. i am happy riding my bike with him. watching crazy funny movies with him. and keeping him awake at night with all my questions about life and sin and what we are doing here.
he is patient.
and knows when to make fun of me. and when not to.
he lets me wear his black american apparel hoodie.
and lets me use his back bike light because i was lazy and didn't take mine off before i went into work.
mostly though...
he loves me deeply. so much so I don't even understand really how or why, but he does.


Friday, January 04, 2008

Currently Listening
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By Classic Crime
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im dusting off xanga.

i don't know exactly why i like it. but i do.

a little like brandon's car.

the driver's side back door doesn't open.

the trunk doesn't open... usually... sometimes it will. then it doesn't close.

mold or some sort of plant life has found its home on the roof.

but i like the car.

more than mine. more than almost any car i can think of.

i really don't know why i like it so much.

       in other news. i am back to only one job. thats really nice.

       my room is messy. which doens't happen very often.

       i spent last weekend in astoria. brandon and i went to the astoria column and took a look. and took a picture with the wonderful polaroid. we had to donate a dollar to some sort of cause.. for letting us park there.  i have never really understood the concept of forcing people to donate.

       my Christmas was splendid.  with all sorts of cheers and hugs. and warm pies. friends and family. i got a music box.  its a snow man with people ice-skating in his stomach when you open it. i got a set of bowls just gleaming with color and trendiness.  brandon stuffed me a stocking with peeps and an 80 gb i pod. i actually thought he had re-used the box and that my real gift was inside. i was beside myself. then he spent an entire day putting all my music on it.  he is a keeper. for sure.

as for anything else....         im tired. and im going to bed.

 


Thursday, September 06, 2007

i feel like no one looks at xanga anymore.
im sitting at cafe delirium in troutdale/gresham. and the d key has a star on it. i like anberlin. brandon is playing them. and the sun is creeping in through the cracks in the bamboo shades next to my chair. my leg is getting quite warm. i think portland is one of the most amazing places in the states. its so large... yet so personal. people love things here. i think Love Portland will go well this weekend. i think i need to go eat something.
i traded coffee for beer last week. yum! i traded a shirt for a beautiful skirt two weeks ago. its lovely. i think trading is better than buying.
thats what ive been thinking lately.
that and .. i miss lauren ..
and .. im tired ..
and .. im so incredibly lucky to have brandon in my life ..
and .. i should check people's xanga sites ..


Friday, May 18, 2007

us!!2

Look everyone!!  It's the man of my dreams! [ohh wow... he is the one I have been praying for and hoping for and wishing for and dreaming about for 22 years..]

Let me introduce you all to BRANDON WADSWORTH.



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